In this new game I got, Katawa Shoujo, I just found a
part of myself being reflected in Emi, the love interest.
She lost her legs in an accident, and a father to boot.
As she finally talks about these things, she says "I've
already had everything I knew ripped away from me once. I
don't know what I'd do if it happened again. So I can't
rely on anybody." I have felt the same way when I lost
Jack... I lost my greatest friend, due to my own failures.
I punished myself for it and now despite any and all
efforts, I cannot get past this to become friends with him.
I know what I have done, and what I should have done. The
past cannot be changed, I realize that, and this is one of
my philosophies. Another I had was to never let someone
get close to me ever again, because I knew in my soul that
it would result in me losing any new friends the same way.
I had lost so many friends in my life, and most of them
within a period of 3 years. I never wanted this to happen,
but after that period, I isolated myself. The pain that
happened to me after this period was so unbearable. I was
alone. I couldn't talk to my family about this, and I grew
apart from them. I had no contact with any of these friends
I lost, and even now with facebook, I have found them, but
I still cannot talk to them.
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